I’m still debating whether I should write about it. I think I should lets see.
I will fill in the gaps whenever I get the time and mood.
It happened on 15th of August 2024. We were in love for 2 years.
I was going through an extremely tough time.
Job Issue
- everyone around me has got jobs(internships) but I couldn’t find any.
- but by girlfriend has gotten an internships as QA intern at Pickme through her brother. he referred her to the hr at Pickme ( they were school friends ). He told her the types of questions and that they would ask. She prepared for 2 days and passed the interview.
- She was coming late to home. She didn’t get time to spend with me like last 2 years. but I expected it.
- Even on the weekends whenever she get the time she tends to ignore me. I think she started to dislike even before all of these happened. That’s what my friends has suggested.
PHILOSOPHER: No, you are wrong. It’s easy to see if you think back on the example of separating from a person whom one has been in a love relationship with. In relationships between lovers or married couples, there are times when, after a certain point, one becomes exasperated with everything one’s partner says or does. For instance, she doesn’t care for the way he eats; his slovenly appearance at home fills her with revulsion, and even his snoring sets her off. Even though until a few months ago, none of it had ever bothered her before.
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PHILOSOPHER: The person feels this way because at some stage she has resolved to herself, I want to end this relationship, and she has been looking around for the material with which to end it. The other person hasn’t changed at all. It is her own goal that has changed. Look, people are extremely selfish creatures who are capable of finding any number of flaws and shortcomings in others whenever the mood strikes them. A man of perfect character could come along, and one would have no difficulty in digging up some reason to dislike him. That’s exactly why the world can become a perilous place at any time, and it’s always possible to see everyone as one’s enemies.
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I start fight. I felt like I was losing whole world. nothing went right on that time. everything on my life was going downhill
- First wave I didn’t get any interviews. July 2024 - Aug 2024
- Second wave I didn’t do well on interviews. Sep 2024 - October 2024
- Third wave I did do well on interviews but they didn’t select me - Nov 2024
- Then came the fourth and final wave multiple offers from LSEG, Qlub, Codification and Sysco LABS - December 2024 - February 2025
Financial Issues
- My brother told he will not spend for my degree. so I had to find 8 lakhs + living expenses by my own.
- Internships can’t even come to that much salary.
- I only had 4 months to do all of these.
My Family Issues
University Issues
No Guidance, No Friends and Hopelessness
TLDR
- All of above problemes made me a bitter person.
- I couldn’t understand what shes going through. she couldn’t understand me.
- I start to fight
- She got sick of me.
- Her family forced her to give up on me (she already did at that point)
- she just disappeared and changed her number. No explanations, Nothing.
- Took me more than 9 months to even get back to normal. went to more than 55 counselling sessions.
- Now I’m doing okay. but I still love that soul. Maybe in another life